The Nature of Thoughts

I tried to reach the state of being thoughtless. I was looking at a flower. Just the flower. Thinking of nothing else.

In a few minutes, I was thinking about the movie which I had watched recently. Then I was day dreaming. A few minutes later, I became aware of what I was doing.

I turned my focus on the flower again. I kept on focusing on the flower. I kept on saying "keep focusing on the flower". Only a few seconds later I realised that it was a thought. So I just kept staring at the flower.

In a short while I started to visualise the flower.

I decided to try a trick. I closed my eyes. Still visualising the flower. Then I slowly let it vanish into the blackness.

"I have become thoughtless." I thought. "No. I must not think." I thought again.

Then I stopped. Have I succeeded? No. I was just focusing on the blackness. Which itself is a thought.

I laughed. Opened my eyes and walked away. Thinking about what to do next.